Doctors, Life and Homeowners
21 Jan 2011 Leave a Comment
Well we have finally arrived…… We are now homeowners! This is super exciting and scary at the same time. Our home boosts 5 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms (WOOHOO), 2 living rooms, an amazing kitchen, and LOTS OF SPACE!!!! It is in Santaquin Utah. Here is a shout out to all my gifted and talented friends….. I need help decorating and make it shine!
I went to the Dr. yesterday and for the first time in a long time he had GREAT news for me! Dr. said I am doing GREAT!!!! I need to see a neurologist but that’s been a long time coming. I’m not in remission yet but am on the right path! He said to give my body 2 more years to conquer the side effects (pain,fatigue, vomiting, and everything else) to ease up! Prayers are amazing and I fully believe that is the ONLY reason I am doing so well!
Life is good. I never seem to have enough time in a day but at the same time I feel like I never have enough to do! Crazy I know! I have got amazing friends that are as close to me as family, and wonderful family. I am truly blessed. By the way don’t I have the CUTEST friends and Hubby?!!!!!!
Amazing to be Alive
09 Dec 2010 3 Comments
Well life is sure funny in ways. we have been super busy. I am going to do my best to update from the last few months! Work is still the same, we are both ecommerce coaches and enjoy teaching others how to make money and start businesses online. Our company is a good one to work for and we love it. Click here to see openings if you are looking for a job!!!
We have met an outstanding new family the Harper’s. Laura blesses me everyday and encourages me. She and I have a ton in common and she is pretty much AMAZING. We went to dinner and shopping last weekend and this weekend we are going to The Dickens christmas festival with them and I AM SUPER EXCITED. Nothing melts my heart faster than her 3 year old angel. My good friend Ashley moved back to Utah from Hawaii which is so nice to have her back. She has a super adorable son Gabe. We enjoy all time we get to spend together. My friend Whit and her family are also super fun. And their little monkey keeps them going!
We don’t really have any new news on my health although the Dr. Told me I would be lucky if I made it to Christmas if I didn’t do chemo. I have faith that I am going to prove him wrong and I can’t wait until the day I can say TOLD YOU SO!!! I have been doing a variety of herbal treatments and and they seem to be helping. I am not getting any worse as of now but I am not getting better very fast. The vomiting, bone pain, fatigue, and all the other crap will take time to bounce back from. Here are some random photos of the last few months!
Our New websites
19 Aug 2010 Leave a Comment
Hey, for anyone interested we some new website Derin’s is Cancer Diagnosis Info a site about cancer information. Phil’s sites are Hiking Utah Trails BadAss Rifles and World’s Best Coloring Books
A Prayer
21 Jun 2010 Leave a Comment
Concentrate on this sentence: “To get something you never had, you have to do something you never did”. When God takes something from your grasp, He’s not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better. Concentrate on this sentence: “The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.” Something good will happen to you today, something that you have been waiting for. Please do not break me. God our Heavenly Father, walk through my house and take away all my worries and illnesses and please watch over and heal me and my family in Jesus name, Amen.
Live, Laugh, Love
08 Jun 2010 Leave a Comment
This has been such a terrible couple of weeks. Last Wednesday I lost my good friend Stephanie. We were diagnosed with the same cancer and stage. We even had the same doctor. She was diagnosed about a month after me. We enjoyed many support group sessions together. We liked to shop and dine out together. The only difference in our cancer is that she chose chemotherapy and I didn’t. It scared me but I am glad she is not in am pain. The pain that this cancer gives is at best unbearable. I have not been able to walk on my own unassisted for 3 days now.
Always remember,
“your spouse, your children, your colleagues, your enemies—- May you choose to see them all as people, and may you therefore discover solutions you’ve never known and summits you can enjoy together.”
I wish everyone a happy and healthy Summer. Live , Laugh, Love and everything will work out fine! Love and Hugs-Derin
Work and Life
18 Apr 2010 Leave a Comment
Cancer Update
08 Apr 2010 Leave a Comment
I saw the doctor yesterday because I have had severe flu like symptoms for about a week. They did an ultra sound of my belly and found a mass in my gastric cavity. The Dr. is concerned that the cancer has metastasized which would be bad. They ordered a CT scan to get a better picture. I will be doing that next week. So until then I had some blood work done and am anxious to get the result. I am feeling very afraid, nervous and angry. I just want my old life back. Cancer sucks and should go away forever. I am trying to stay positive but it’s so hard. The mass may be nothing serious at all. Anyway, on the plus side I am going to live my life to the fullest and enjoy every minute of it. I love you all and am really needing strong supporters to lean on.
Love and kisses-Derin
A Quick Little update
31 Mar 2010 Leave a Comment
We have been so busy the last few weeks. My dear sweet friend Whitney had a beautiful baby boy and she was gracious enough to allow me to spend most of the day at the hospital with them. Phil turned 30 a couple of weeks ago, and we celebrated with a game night with Justin and Ashley, and Whitney and Jason. We had lots of yummies and played some fun games. As far as my cancer goes, I had some scans done a few weeks ago and the tumors on my right ovary are still reducing in size. HALLELUJAH!!!! Other than a big set back week before last of about a week of throwing up blood, I have felt OK. I had to have my first blood transfusion due to losing so much blood vomiting. That was kinda weird. I still have increasing cancer cells in my blood but the radiation is seeming to be still working. Keep those prayers heading this way. I will try to update more later. Love-Derin
Beautiful Lyrics
26 Feb 2010 2 Comments
The heart may freeze or it can burn
The pain will ease if I can learn
There is no future
There is no past
I live this moment as my last
There’s only us
There’s only this
Forget regret
Or life is yours to miss
No other road
No other way
No day but today,
There’s only yes
Only tonight
We must let go
To know what’s right
No other course
No other way
No day but today,
I can’t control
My destiny
I trust my soul
My only goal is just
To be
There’s only now
There’s only here
Give in to love
Or live in fear
No other path
No other way
No day but today…written by Jonathon Larson, and yes it’s from rent. What can I say, I love the movie and the music is inspiring to me.
Things are looking up
24 Feb 2010 1 Comment
Things are looking up, finally. Phil has found a job and he started on this past Monday. We will have insurance in 30 days(wahoo) and he seems to like it so far. Other than me being home alone while he’s gone life is good. I have been looking for a job still and haven’t found one that works with my ability. My mobility has been improving every day.
We celebrated a very tender Valentines Day together last week and enjoyed spending time together. We were also visited briefly by Phil’s sister Vanessa, so that was nice. We are trying to kinda normalize our lives. It seems we have been in a tornado for the past month. With me being in the hospital for about a total of 7 days and Phil trying to take care of everything while trying to find a job, normalization is very needed. We are so blessed to have family so close to us to help us when we are in a pinch.
I was able to speak to my nephew Holden the other day and that was awesome. He is my brother David’s 9-year-old son. His momma is a sweet lady named Carla and she is helping me to build a relationship with him. My sister Devin is still not speaking to me and not letting me speak to her boys, my other nephews, which sucks because I am used to talking to them just about everyday. Oh well I guess I don’t need the added stress anyway right?
My oncologist called yesterday and since I am so against Chemo, he recommended I do another course of Radiation. He wants me to be more aggressive with the radiation this time. 6 days a week for 3-4 weeks, then do some tests and depending on the results either another 2-3 weeks or I may have to break down and have the hysterectomy and start the stupid chemo. He is concerned because of the joint and bone pain I have is not improving. He wants me to do a scan to see if it is spreading into my bones. I will do that as soon as the insurance kicks in. My blood work is showing cancer cells in it but I need to get it retested because the doctor wants to make sure it is not a fluke.
Anyway I am so blessed because no matter how poopy I feel or how much pain I am in, I have an awesome support system of friends and my Utah family. I have also been able to get back in contact with some of my extended family on my mom’s side. Some of my cousins I have not spoken to in over 6 years. I love reconnecting with people. I hope this week finds all of you in a happy way. I will close this with the following quote:
“Challenges come so we can grow and be prepared for things we are not equipped to handle now. When we face our challenges with faith, prepared to learn, willing to make changes, and if necessary, to let go, we are demanding our power be turned on.” Love-Derin
